Day 13: Baby Steps

...that's what I have to remember. It's not going to just come back in a day. Well it could but I know realistically that's not going to happen. Everyone keeps saying "you're doing good!" "it's looking better!" "you don't look like you're frowning anymore" "It'll come back soon." You'd think by now I would be used to it? Fooled ya! How do you get used to this? Not being able to use a side of your face? In my mind I think it's moving but I know it's not. I actually find myself covering my face when I laugh sometimes. ME? Or I laugh and starting thinking, "I wonder how crazy I look?" I know I know, think positive. I am - just babbling. That's the purpose of this thing right?

Anyhoo, I went to therapy today. 'Twas another good session. No real movement or major improvements but every little step counts. We did a new exercise today, pressing my lips together. NOT! I Can't do it cap'n! Well at least not without holding the left side of my lips. So we did the "E-Stim" which was good. She could see some areas of my face responding really well. Ya for face massages, lol. She did say my speech has improved a lot. Whoot! Oh yeah, those pains that I mentioned in the back of my head, the therapist said those are the nerves.

After therapy I went on to work. My eye was beyond irritated today. Don't know if I'd worked it too much during therapy or what but I had to slap it closed today. I have to keep my disclaimer up on GTalk at work, apologizing for any misspellings because I'm slightly impaired. LOL, not to claim it but I have to look really hard at what I'm typing or re-read it a couple times or just wing it because it's blurry either way you slice it. *blink* It's funny, there are still so many people in the office that do not know. And I mean people that work for the same company. As I was headed to a meeting today I heard a coworker say, "What is Natasha, a pirate?" *insert sad face* Luckily I was too busy telling someone else who'd noticed the patch with the confuzzled face and said, "There has to be a story behind this!" to be affected. The nutmeg ball just looks like I have a piece of candy in my mouth... "or snuff" as another coworker said, lol. I only wore it for a couple hours and my eye felt so much better after that rest. But it didn't take long to dry out again.

Oh well, the day is over (work wise) and I'm in chill mode for the remainder of the evening. Something is giving me a headache and I'm not sure what it was. I could attribute it to a number of things but I'll leave that alone and just cool it.

Guess what? That's right, lol, no video. No updated picture either. maybe tomorrow.